Was thinking about that time the beautiful girl from school was a successful model and was traveling Europe modeling high fashion and the demands of a perfect 80s physique got to her and she gained weight and this young fellow a couple of years younger took a special interest in her, he seemed interested in me momentarily but I had hang-ups galore yet admired his devotion to the beautiful girl and how much she embraced his love and admiration and she started to recover from her whirlwind 80s look good tour for a few bucks, well lots of bucks. It was strange to me that the biggest earning jobs at the time for women were based on their appearance.  A model or actress or on the seedy side of life a stripper or prostitute.

Now women want to look good feel good but women’s health seems so elusive and abused and misused as each case truly is different yet truly all women want to be loved and love/nurture, be respected and be able to do the things they want in life and have amazing companions and friends.

In all those ways to feel good, find a suitable mate, a home, a career, supportive friends and enjoy good feelings, be able to have excitement over wonderful things like flowers, kittens and dogs and romantic hopeful, value their insides as swell as outsides. To have control over their bodies….a big issue these days. And care when sorrow and pain occur. And to be able to control our own urges for too much cake, crunch or salt or for him, or this or that and then reeled in to something unfathomable or suddenly a control is gone resources misused, a women sits energetic forces swirl around her she cups her knees to give herself shelter and now she is here water so calm a pebble would ripple for a million miles.

To have love enough to love yourself truly out of abuse of any sort, to love your life enough to forgive and move on to self-control and not needing to convince him or her or this or that of your worth or value or fit an image or mold. To be who you are and what you’d like…it is like your best self, without the nerousis or nervous or addiction or coyness to just get what you want, or just to sell the latest trend. To have health and your own esteem and wealth suitable for your lifestyle and needs and wants. Yes, shyness in kitties are so cute, but it’s crazy how that gets distorted too in the image ploy to earn a buck. Yet nice to look at my kitten so innocent and at times shy or coy and yes, she gets what she wants most of the time. But I choose her and protect her and care about her. Not every Jane, Jill or Sally or Jack, Tom or Dick or Harry or Boots or Mittens, but to never really turn away a stray without water, food and access to shelter and care.